i have been a little off the last couple weeks...
the kind of "off" where you lay on your bed for a long time just...sad.
a big part of this has to do with the fact that i have a new boob lump.
yes...we are living through that again. sigh...
i have been worried about medical bills because this time around i don't have the luxury of mama face and dadda face's wonderful insurance.
i have also been sad that i am not exceptionally good at anything.
i can do a lot of things. but i don't excel at things.
one of these things being photography. i have a creative mind...but im not good with the actual camera.
i have known this. but it's just painful when i get multiple from people critiquing my work.
on one particular "woe is me" night, the tedward cuddled up to me and stroked my hair as i just let out all of my frustrations...
"we don't have money to buy a house like everyone else..."
"i wish i was as good at taking pictures as 'so and so'...but im not even close"
"i want to eat crap food and never work out and look as good as 'so and so'..."
"why do i have acne? i am freakin almost 22 years old!"
"speaking of being 22...why do i keep having tumors? it's not fair."
and yada yada yada...
and you know what ted said? nothing. and it was perfect.
he let me cry it out...and whine...and be "woe as me" as long as i needed, and then he said,
"lauren...you are perfect for me."
ted always knows what to say to make me feel better.
he is right...i don't need to be the best at everything.
i can be just lauren, with the lumpy boobs, and the zits on the face...and i will still be perfect to him because that's what love is. its loving someone unconditionally...even when they whine...and have lumpy boobs :)
he truly is the best husband in the world.
so, this brings me to my exciting news...
i am going to have a contest. it will be called "The Hottest Husband Search!".
do you think your husband is a stud? send in the best picture you have, and list three reasons why he is the hottest. they can be sweet things he has done...or can simply be that he is handy with a hammer. :)
once a week i will feature a new group of husbands and we will vote on the favorite of the bunch. After four weeks the finalists will be featured in a grand voting. the husband who wins gets a prize!
so send in your entries to busybeelaurenblog@gmail.com !
*yes...the tedward will be included in the contest :)
134 awesomespice comments:
First I'm sorry to hear that the tumor is back. To be young and have your body betray you is no fun at all. Plus having to deal with insurance and bills just makes things that much more overwhelming. I understand you girl! But having a husband by your side that doesn't think you are a mutant and loves you unconditionally and just wants to love you so much helps SOOO much. The Tedward is amazing and you are too.
Second I'm excited, I'm going to enter your contest, my first ever blog contest. Look at me stepping out!
Thanks as always for your honesty.
I think you're awesome at photography. Sure, you may have some ways to go with using your camera... but we ALL do. Half the time my shots are lucky! That's why it's such a great medium, because you can always learn and grow.
I'm sorry to hear about the lump. I hope it all turns out alright.
-hugs-
Sorry about all your frustrations... Trust the Lord he will guide you and let you know exactly what to do.
That is so cute about your husband. He seems perfect, and you guys seem perfect together. :)
I don't have a husband...so im not entering, obviously... wait, can edward and peeta be entered?... didn't think so... ok... well good luck ladies!!!
I am sorry to hear you were donw last week. I was too, so don't feel alone!! We had family drama, work drama, and my diet was non-exsistant... ya.... I couldn't even sit at the computer to facebook, twitter, or blog!! Good luck this week!
I'm sorry about your tumor coming back! Also, I totally know how you feel about that acne. Except, then I remember how I never actually use that prescription acne medication.
Sadly, I don't have a husband {yet}to enter in the contest. Do boyfriends of over 4 years count?
Awww, Lauren! You are not alone in feeling the way you do. I was having some of those same thoughts about myself just this last week. You are a wonderful person and talented and inspiring! Hang in there!
I love the idea of the hottest husband search! I will definitely be entering my hubby.
i went through a roller coaster of emotions reading this entry. sad for you and your lump with no parental insurance, happy that you have an awesome husband, and excited about your contest. hopefully jack will agree to enter this.
you are the perfect at being you and i hope you never doubt that.
Sorry about your tumor, I must have missed the first time you had one. I hope everything is ok! Cool idea with the husbands! I love your stories about tedward because they remind me of what my hubby does for me. Always good to be reminded :)
PS I think you are good at everything and I pretty much lay in bed everynight crying to my husband about why I can't be just like you. The best part is I'm almost positive I'm not the only one.
Yes! Long term boyfriends can be entered too! I will have a special week just for boyfriends :)
Aww, Lauren. I totally have those sad moments too, I think we all do. Sorry to hear about the lump- and I know what it's like to worry about medical bills. I'll keep you in my prayers.
And I think you excel at many things! Like blogging- your posts always make me smile/laugh. And sometimes I wish I was as cool as you. :)
YOU CAN DO IT!
Glad your husband rocks. That is a blessing not everyone gets to experience.
Acne: adult acne sucks and for women it doesn't necessarily go away. Seeing a dermatologist will help along with patience and compliance (I am a derm nurse who suffers acne!) There are several combinations to help you....really!
Sharing always makes people feel better. I read your blog daily and I find you very talented... in just being you! If people give you crap about your pic's... they can learn to keep their mouth shut. I have taken simple photography classes through the local community college... inexpensive and very helpful if you want to pick up tips about your camera. Your creative eye is natural!
Ugh.... I hate that you feel this way. Too many of us understand.
Keep us posted...
Cheers
chin up girl! You'll figure it all out.... you're in my prayers
Ted is awesome! What a great guy. Us girls always need time to vent and let it all out and just have some one listen to us.
We don't own a house either. We rent one and we might have to go back to an apartment after the lease is up. We will see. I still get Acne and I am 30 now. I don't know if it ever stops. Hang in there! I am sorry to hear about the lump.
I want to enter my hubby! I look forward to the contest!
Lauren, you are the "Zooey Deschanel" of my blog world. Whenever we put ourselves out there, we're going to have critics. That's just how it is. Don't stop what you're doing..keep it up. It will all work out.
OK, so I am really trying my luck with the contest:) He is my fiance, we have been together for almost 9,5 years now...Am sad to see you are dealing with such hard things and being so young, but I know God is watching over you and TEdward and hope you will be able to have as many happy nights with him being just the way you are...perfect for him :)
i'll say it again...you & ted give me hope of finding great love.
i think you are ridiculously talented - we're all our own harshest critic.
so sorry about your lump, i hope it all works out!
How many times have I left comments saying how much I LOVE your photography, bb? It's good to not be the best at everything, otherwise you wouldn't have anything to aspire to.
I'm keeping you in my prayers for everything else that's going on. Keep your chin up, and wear that cute berry lipstick. And think of Paul Wesley's abs.
We all need to whine sometimes...it feels good. But, my dear, you are darling and so good at writing in your blog and making so many people laugh and smile! I'm so sorry to hear of your lump. (I'm new to your blog - not sure of your history.) You will be in my thoughts...
And -super excited about your contest!!! Thank you!
Stinkin' boobage lumpage! >:(
Pretty much no one stands a chance against the Kris Face...SRSLY.
Im so sorry to hear about your lumpy boob. Dont worry, I have the same woe is me nights. Sometimes It would be nice to be just like someone else. But know that a lot of people want to be just like you. You excel, You just dont give yourself the credit you deserve. And seriously... no husband stands a chance against Zach.
So sorry to hear about the lump but I know God will take care of you and all the insurance and whatnot.
After we first got married, it seemed like all my friends "had it together" (i.e., were buying houses, having kids, had lots of disposable income to always go out to eat and go on vacation--I haven't been on an out-of-state vacation since before we got married four years ago). I made myself sick over worrying about what we did and didn't have. I eventually realized that it's okay that I'm not like everyone else. I have a wonderful husband who loves me for me, I don't have to be someone else around him, I can be honest and open with him without fear of fighting or backlash, etc. Now, it's a few years later and we do have a house and a baby on the way, and it was worth the wait. Nothing good ever comes easy.
I'm not trying to lecture you...just want you to know that I've been there. You've got you a good man and a great family and you are very talented, despite what you may think of yourself. So many people love you (even if there are silly critics out there who are just looking for someone to bring down)!
Okay, *stepping down from the podium*. Cheer up, kiddo! Things are gonna be a-okay. :)
I'm new to reading your blog. Google reader suggested it. = ) I love it. Keep your chin up!
I share a lot of your frustrations = ) I'm new at photography too. I want to be so good really really really bad. And I always worry about what people say when they see my pictures. All I have to say to that is EVERYONE had to start somewhere. Anyone that is really awesome now didn't start out that way...guaren-dang-tee it. If people keep asking you to take their pics they must like them = ) that's what I keep telling myself. They see what I do, they ask, must like what they see. Your pictures are super cute and you are very creative. Just keep plugging away at it. You just get better as you go. I'm far from where I want to be but further than when I started = )
Oh this website has really helped me it's like 5 bucks a month but you can ask professionals questions, they have tons of tutorials and lots of other stuff = )
http://www.clickinmoms.com/
Don't let rude people get to you....just keep it up!!
I am so glad you have the perfect husband for you to help you through these moments.
I know you don't need someone to offer you an icecream cone ("something sweet that melts in 5 minutes"--Thank you Elizabethtown) but I genuinely mean it when I say you are good at a whole myriad of things. In fact, you often inspire me. Your eye for fashion and decor, your ability to craft and thrift shop, your adorable vintage style and beautiful looks (ok that's not something I can imitate, that's God given, but still), your ability to make friends and make everybody feel welcome and included, your wit and humor, and the list goes on...
As for those "life's not fair" moments, well, those just suck don't they? I've been having a few pity parties myself lately. I mean, I've had the back problems of an old lady since I was 16 and even now after my surgery new problems developed. And I too still have acne. But just know that you're in my prayers especially in regards to the newest lump--you deserve only health and happiness. Please keep me updated and let me know if there's anything I can do.
{Hugs}
Oh Lauren, I'm so sorry about your new tumor!! But I am glad you have the Tedward and a happy and loving family. I'm going to pray for you! As far as acne goes, I am MUCH older than you are and it still messes with me. You aren't alone! Hugs to you!
hey lauren,
im sorry to hear about your lumpy boob is back. when i first read your blog and read thru your surgery, it made me really sad because we are both too young for this kind of shit. i understand how you feel, the "woe is me" and that you may be scared to death and it kills me because these things shouldnt happen to good people... or any person for that matter... i was diagnosed with breast cancer early this year and i also felt a lumpy boob and with everything i have gone thru, i am praying to the dear Lord your lump is no biggie so you can move on to bigger and better things!
ps - i am one of those people who stay up at night wishing i were as cool as you. no lie!
I hate being "a little off." I too have felt this way the last few weeks. It's no fun. I love your husband contest idea. Sometimes I need to step back and think of the person whose great qualities make up for my faults.
Lumpy boobs suck - 'nuf said. So sorry to hear about that - keep faith and you'll be in our prayers.
Second of all, I "know" a lot of photographers and your work is aFREAKINmazing. Srsly. You are totally witty and beautiful and have a gerat hubby to boot. You are the best at being you. That's all you need to worry about.
You bring a smile and laughter to your readers, and no doubt your family, friends and those you encounter every day. Just by being you, you're making your mark on the world. Sometimes that's all that's needed and can make a HUGE difference in someone's life.
Everything happens in it's own good time. We may not like waiting for it,and the road it takes may not always be fun, but you'll get there.
I am sorry about your lump :(
I think you are pretty awesome, but I can relate to how you feel. I wonder why I can't find what I am supposed to do and excel at something.I am good at a lot of things, but I don't shine at one thing.
My husband and I didn't buy our first house until we had been married for seven years.
I still get acne and I am 34.
I love your photographs!
hang in there,
Beth
I admire you in so many ways and I don't even know you! I know what it is like to feel bad about yourself for "not being good at anything" it is hard to see yourself as others see you. You are amazing, funny, unique, talented and loved. I am sorry you are going through a tough time right now. You are blessed to have such beautiful relationship with Ted, everything else will fall into place. On a lighter note, I am sooo excited about the Hottest husband contest because I happen to think my husband is awesome! ;) Keep Smiling!
Anonymous - your comment has been deleted because you don't know me. please don't assume things.
Hi Lauren!
Lumpy boobs are no fun. I had one when I was 23. It's very scary when your body betrays you. You have the strength to get through this. And when you don't, the people who love you have strength for you.
I like the way you ended your pity party, too. It behooves all of us to take stock regularly of the things of real value in our lives.
Hottest Husband Search? I love it! I can't wait!
Lauren I love you. And I just wanna say to anyone out there who thinks she fishes for compliments, you're pretty much WAY OFF. I KNOW this girl. I think if anyone had a high profile blog like hers, you would be under a lot of scrutiny and judgement and like anyone else in this world, it is never fun when people put you down. Luckily Lauren, you are amazing enough to rise above the negative people and become stronger. No one is perfect at anything but we are all good at something. And you my friend, are good at lots of things!! xoxo
I will definitely be praying for you, Lauren!
Just remember, God has a plan. I have to remind myself of that everyday or I go crazy.
Lauren hang in there. Us girl tumor girls in our 20s gotta stick together. Find comfort in your loved ones, they will give you strength when you are scared.
You are amazingly talented, its awesome and I wish I had just half the talent that you do.
Keep your chin up it will all work out! If you need to commiserate about stupid lumpy tumors I'm you girl! Hang in there
Also, no husband. Booooo
I am sorry about your lump, we are shooting prayers your way.
I think you are great at all of the things you show on your blog. I find myself thinking "I wish I could sport that outfit/lipstick/house decorations like Lauren.
You are awesome!
I'm very sorry to hear that your tumor is back. I can't even pretend to know what that might be like. I imagine its terrifying and frustrating. please know that you AND your family will be in my prayers as you take on this challenge.
I've said this before, but I completely envy your talent with the camera. If you're not that great, you're sure fooling me! :p I think you have tremendous talent, and you should continue to develop it. My personal opinion :) I also envy your amazing decorating skillz...I wish I had half that sense of mind. I'm trying to be better, shop thrift stores more. Realize that most things CAN be changed for the better! :)
Hot husbands, huh?? Hrm...gotta find a great picture around here... ;)
Keep your chin up! :)
I'm sorry all this is going on. I've been telling my husband for the past month that I swear I'm going through a mid-twenties crisis...the thing is, I'm not even in my mid-twenties yet. It's the best, though, when the hubby just sits there and listens and then tells me atleast I'm hot and leaves it at that. Thanks for sharing your doubts and insecurities...it's who you are and it's real. I know it's not some way to fish for compliments. It shows the rest of us that you're human and just like us and it helps us feel a little less inadequate. I hope things get better for you and your boob.
I have acne too and I'm almost 25, don't feel bad :( Nothing seems to work for me either
I'm so sorry to hear about the boob lump. :( Trials teach us and make us stronger. You are lucky to have such an amazing husband by your side. Don't let a few small minded naysayers get you down. You are a very talented photographer. I would love to have half your sense of style! Thank you for having the courage to go out on a limb and share these personal aspects of your life with us.
I'm soo sorry about your lumpy boob. I hope everything works out alright.
You are one lucky gal to have Ted! When I find the right guy I hope he's as great as your Ted is =)
Can't wait to see the husbands in the contest!
Lauren:
You excel in making me laugh.
Keep looking up, kid!
P.S. I am 32, and still get pimples occasionally..yucky.
I'm sorry you have another lump. But Tedward was so sweet and with his love and support and your strength, you'll get through this!
And I'm loving the hottest husband search idea! Such a great idea!
Lauren - as someone who only knows you through your witty and often laugh-out-loud posts, I was so sad to read this latest one. But you have to remember that no matter what, you are allowed to have "down" days and you are allowed to be your own worst critic. But just look at all of these comments. Look at how many people out there are touched by what you write. You've brought a smile to my day many times (and a few hysterical laughing sessions with a friend of mine as we read through Lauren's Bite). I will be thinking good thoughts for you all around. Just know that there are so many of us out there that don't even know you but adore you all the same!
I'm sorry about the lumps. That is such a scary thing.
I feel like I don't excel in anything either. I am just mediocre in things. I was just talking to my husband about this. Um...I think your photography is beautiful and wonderful. Critics are dumb. I can't believe people have negative opinions about it. "If you don't have something nice to say, then don't say anything at all!" Seriously.
I'm adding my husband, he's a stud but not too photogenic but I will search for a good pic.
Sorry to hear about the lump... I will be praying for you!
Can I enter Adam since he is almost my husband? In like 48 days?
I'm so sorry your feeling "off" and your so brave to put this on your blog. I love that this is the "real you" and you don't pretend to be happy when your not. I admire that.
I went through a down time a few months ago... It's hard when all of your friend are buying a house, or having babies, or their husbands have amazing jobs with insurance. My husband finally told me that each couple has their own time table. It was like a wake up call for me..
The Tedward is perfect for you.
& I'm sooo entering the husband contest!
Aw Lauren...sorry about the new boob tumor. It isn't fair to be young and be sick...trust me I know!
Also, want to know what is funny? I read your blog and check out your amazing marriage, awesome photography, your design skillz, and your good hair and think man I suck compared to her...and my blog sucks compared to hers! We all do it...
Hope things get better!
It's always nice to just let it all out and be sorry for yourself. It usually, I feel, gets you over the issues quicker. I hope everything with the boob-stuff goes well. <3
Aw, I'm sorry about the lumpy problems! E-mail me if you need to talk. I'm well seasoned in hospital stays. It's like my second home!
You are good at things, Lauren, but I understand where you're coming from. DH is an AWESOME musician, and a lot of the time I look at all this stuff I can do, but I just feel mediocre at all of it. Maybe it's just a girl thing, but from someone on the outside looking, you seem like you have a ton of awesome talents. Don't be so hard on yourself.
You know what I think is a fundamental problem for girls everywhere? We're all super hard on ourselves. We can't see how great we are. All we see are our flaws. It makes us human. It makes us real. But it also makes us stupid. Because I think the fact that you are fifty billion followers kinda attests to the fact that you are notable. And even if you didnt, you'd still be notable. And I love Ted's perfect response. Cause I definitely think that sometimes there are no words that will make it all better - its just nice to know someone is hearing it.
But your contest breaks my heart... what about those girls who dont have a husband? Can I enter my dad? He's pretty great.
oh and p.s. I think you are great at pretty much everything I've seen on your blog. and thats alot.
Miss Lauren-
My mama face told me about the mean losers who were commenting your post. LOSERS! I'll never understand why some people go out of their way to waste their time being nimrods! My Uncle Robby called people like them (and sometimes me because I am easy to tease) neomaxizoomdewbies. That's what they are!
Wanted you to know that I appreciate and understand what you are saying here! My entire life I have felt sad that I don't do anything extraordinary. And of course I am comparing myself to other people. But the thing I've learned (after I figured out what my talents were) is that its not extraordinary that you can do amazing things, but that you try and don't give up. There will always be the busy-bodies who critique but you will always have your supporters!
I didn't know about your ta-ta problems! :( If it makes you feel any better I have defective blood that will make it complicated to have babies someday, and if Vampires ever did exist and a hot one like Edward or Stefan ever decided to try me out they'd probably be repulsed! Damn! Ha ha ha. And I totally am 26 and still get zits! Boooooo!!!
See? You're not alone! In the word's of your lover and mine- Zac Efron, "We're all in this together."
You, Lauren, are beautiful and wonderful (from what I've observed) and NO LOSER MEANY FACE BLOG COMMENTERS- she didn't fish for that one!
Sorry about the tumor, I'm thinking of you. You're awesome, love you and all your "spunk".
firstly, i am so sorry your boob tumor is back! i'll be keeping you in my prayers. secondly, i have been having "off" weeks too, and have also done a lot of laying in bed and being sad. so sad that my mama almost had to come rescue me from the M*Ville.
Lastly, I am so glad that you have Ted to take care of you and love you so so much. It gives me hope that one day I will have that.
Very sorry to hear about the return of the lumps. That Ted fella, he's a good man.
Regarding the contest, can I enter on my wife's behalf?
Well you are apparently good at blogging - b/c look at all the supportive comments you have received! And you take AWESOME pictures (even if you think you are not good w/the camera)! You are great at fashion - I look at the outfits you post pics of and think, gosh, I'd love to look like that!
I feel your pain w/the acne...I'm 33 and mine has only become worse with time.
As far as boob lumps...never underestimate the power of prayer! You will definitely be in mine, and many other people's prayers, I'm sure!
Sweet Lar:
Sometimes it is better to be good at a lot of things than it is to be perfect at just one. You are a good photographer, a good designer, a wonderful person and you have many talents. I'm sure there are people that excel at one thing, and only one thing, that wish they could have just the amount of talent in your pinky finger.
I have a friend who LOVES your photography so much that she tried to get me to take your style of pics when I did a photo shoot for her and her husband. My pics of them turned out okay, but I don't have your eye, so they simply couldn't compare.
If you love taking pictures, then keep taking them. Don't let other people's personal tastes tell you what to do. Do what brings you joy.
I hope you are feeling happier soon, and that your lump turns out to be harmless. Prayers for you and Ted (he is sure a keeper)!
A quick thought from this months Ensign magazine:
"Some of us look forward to a time in the future--salvation and exaltation in the world to come--but today is part of eternity." -David O. McKay
How often we live our life looking forward instead of enjoying the present. I fall into the trap of "I can be completely happy when we own a home" or "I can be completely happy when we have retirement set up"...But there will always be "I can be happy whens"...they never go away...as soon as you accomplish one, a whole new set emerges.
Of course it is important to be concerned with the future, however, as President McKay points out, it is equally important to enjoy TODAY (for that too, is part of eternity)!
Here's to TODAY!
Mrs. Tedward, I love how it takes me five hours to scroll down your entire list of comments on your blog! Clearly, you are absolutely adored! I think you excel in every way by knowing what true love is and having discovered that, you will give and receive the best that life has to offer you with your best friend at your side. Umm I am dying to enter Chad into this little contest! haha, I am beyond wishing I could just declare him as the husband status already. SEVEN MORE MONTHS....ah, it will be done.
<3 Anais
You have a good husband.
Oh my, you are so young and sweet and cute. I think if you were to print this post and read it in 20 years you would be surprised at how much you have and do and are already at the age of 21!
I didn't own a house till I was 27, I still get zits (and I'm old enough to be your mom, I'm not super good at anything but I'm pretty good at alot of things. Seriously don't be so hard on yourself.
I cannot enter my husband - Sorry he would blow everyone out of the contest and others need a chance to succeed!! (wink wink)!!
Have a Happy Day!! Pat yourself on the back for all the great things you do :D
Sorry - my hubby is the hottest and I'm not sharing him with ANYONE.
I feel sorry for you.
Anais - you can enter your boyfriend!
I'm sorry, sweetheart! I'll be praying for you. You are wonderful at photography (or at least better than most of us, which is good enough). You already have what most people don't and really really want: a wonderful husband who loves you unconditionally and will support you through anything. Plus, he's "freakin hottspice!" Feel better soon! Love, Lindsay
I'm so sorry to hear that you're having medical troubles. But let me say a couple things:
First: I think you're awesome at photography. Your pictures are awesome.
Second: I read your blog daily, and it never fails to either crack me up or touch my heart. And that takes some talent.
Keep your head up!!!
Lauren,
I think you excel at photography and design and fashion and cooking! I am jealous of your many excel-ations. Although you may feel your photography is inferior to someone elses think about how long you've been doing it and the fact that you have no formal training or photo schooling under your belt and people will still line up and pay you to photo them! Anyway, you're great and I know just how you feel, only I really don't excel at stuff. You kick my butt. Loves to you.
i toootally wrote a post of a similar nature last week. i think it's just one of those inherent qualities that all us girls have. i think it's important to have aspirations, just as it's important to work for them. i'm new to photography too, and although there are so many things i wish i could do-i have to constantly remind myself that i just have to work at it and i'll get there eventually. for the record, i think your pictures are amazing :) k i think it would be so fun to do a shoot together, i have some coming up-let me know if you're in!
sorry the tumors are back, i hope everything turns out okay! you'll be in my prayers :)
"that he is handy with a hammer" thatswhatshesaid
I am 24, I'm still having zits and the first wrinkles are slowly surfacing. Shouldn't there be a moment of perfection in between those two stages? So unfair!
Alice! BEST "that's what she said" ever!
You win at life.
have to comment again...because i can never handle when the comment number is 69.
Lauren!
I related in so many ways to this post! I too lack insurance, because I lack a job. I'm finishing a Master's and there are a lot of times (most times, really) where I don't feel good enough. I'll be 24 in a few months and right now, I have a super wicked zit coming up in 2 places, and I'm fighting another that scarred. I'm sorry to hear about your lump-ness...I'll keep you in my thoughts / prayers.
But, like you, I have a wonderful fiance who calms my fears and dries my tears. I will most definitely be entering your contest.
And when you're feeling low, think of this: to your readers, your blogs / twitters / etc. bring joy into our lives. :)
- Megan
ps: thanks for commenting on my blog! conan is pretty awesome.
I am SO sorry about your insecurities and woes. Everyone has them- but it doesn't make handling them ANY easier. I'm praying for you!
That's so not fair Ted's in the contest. He's gonna win. Too bad I don't have a boyfriend/husband...
Lauren-for the record, I am so jealous of you!! In my opinion your photography is beautiful. I try to take photos like you and they turn out as blurry pieces of what I call "abstract art". It doesn't matter if you are not as good as the best, because you don't have to be. You have tonnes and tonnes of time to work on your technique.
Plus, you can do all of that awesome interior design and cooking, and never fail to make even the most different of people laugh.
I think you are getting yourself mixed up with me- because I am the one who doesn't excel at anything!!
You are so lucky to have The Tedward by your side. Just remember that he is really the only one that matters.
I hope everything works out well :)
Hmm I don't have a boyfriend, but I could photoshop one up!
You are one lucky girl to have someone who knows exactly what to say (which was super sweet). He sounds like he really "gets you". And I'm sorry about you feelin' bad :(
I really like to think of this little sentence when I'm feeling bad. EVERYONE HAS SOMETHING! You are talented in more ways than you know. I can tell you got a lot goin' on.
Lauren your blog is adorable and judging by the number of followers you have, you're darn good at blogging!
Also judging by your wedding/house pics, you're good at interior design etc. :]
Plus, this isn't a talent per se, but you're totally gorgeous!
Have a happier week!
Lauren, I'm sorry you are going through a lot right now. I do understand not with the boop lumps but with your body not working correctly. I've been having problems with mine on and off since I got married three years ago. It's not easy but it's just a hurrdle we have to get over and we will get over it!
My husband and I still live an apartment because we both are still in school, both work full time jobs so it's taking us longer than normal people to get into the house we want etc. So we just drive around and look at houses a few times a month and imagine how great it'll be when we can finally do that ourselves.
I hope all gets better for you! Or at least you feel more positive about it. I continually struggle with the same things but I know it'll all work out.
Miss Lauren--oh, I guess I need to call you Mrs. Tedward:
You are wonderful. Please don't be so hard on yourself and STOP COMPARING. That is one of the worst things any of us can do--it is not what God would want us to do.
I'm sorry about the negative comments--I still don't get it. I don't understand why people do dumb things like that.
I'm very sorry about the lump--I will pray for you.
Don't worry about the house thing--it's not a good time for lots of people. You and Ted are so young--you have lots of times to get a house.
I love Ted's words to you--give him a big hug.
Now, about the contest--I won't enter because we all know ALLAN WOULD WIN--BALD HEAD AND ALL.
Girl- I don't even know you, but I love ya! First off I'm sorry to hear about the tumor, that's so scary. We'll keep you in our prayers.
Secondly don't feel bad, sometimes life is just hard. Being only 22 it's ok if you're not in a great new house, you're so young, I think it should be a right of passage to have to work hard for those luxuries. I grew up in a neighborhood of Las Vegas where my friends all owned cabins, private jets and helicoptors; but my family while comfortable was considered poor. Those friends are now all done with collage, living in 5 bedroom homes for just them and a spouse and driving range rovers, and I'm 25, working to pay my way so I can finish school and living at home...
About the acne... I have THE WORST SKIN! Seriously, I'm almost 26 and I had full on I-need-accutane-every-day-for-10-years acne until just after my 25th birthday. It's finally under control (and about time).
And it may seem menial, but I think you are a FANTASTIC blogger. I spent a good part of my Sunday evening researching how to make my blog better. Better design, navigation, blog post topics, etc. I kept thinking about yours, how it's entertaining, how you post new material everyday, and how you exude so much personality through a computer. It's honestly amazing. So while I don't know enough about you to tell you why you're so great, you are a great a blogger.
PS take it from an aspiring photographer, good pictures only come with practice!!!! I'm talking 100 photos a day everyday practice! It's tough, but it's the only way.
Have a better day!
Morgan
You are AMAZING!! This is coming from another person who is not exceptional at ANYTHING. My best friend was my graduating class's salutatorian, another good friend was third in the class and amazing at ANY kind of art she wanted, and a THIRD good friend got any guy she ever wanted. I've been to dinner with my best friend and have (no lie) TEN guys hit on her. I was sitting right beside her. Nothing. Nada. Zip. My friends move away to big fancy colleges-- I live at home and commute to a small college twenty minutes away.
But honestly? I don't care. And neither should you!!
You are a WONDERFUL person!! You excel at so many things-- particularly in your FAITH!! I struggle almost daily, wondering what I can do to be a better Christian, and just reading your blog, someone can just FEEL how dedicated you are to your faith. You find joy in the tiniest of things!! Not to mention you are drop dead GORGEOUS! And hilarious. I find myself reading your blog in class and trying not to laugh out loud because of classmates giving me awkward looks... :)
You have an AMAZING taste in literature (Hello-- Twilight? Hunger Games? There is no doubting your amazing literary opinion).
And your sense of style-- awesome. And design? Heck to the yes!! I try my hand at so many DIY tasks because your little ones here and there are ADORABLE-- and I fail. Epically. And whenever I'm shopping, I find myself thinking "Hmm... what would Laurenface buy?"
You are an amazing person who excels in motivating other people, making people smile!!! So just keep your chin up, gorgeous. :)
wow. that tedward. he is amazing.
and honey, everything will be alright. i'm so sorry to hear about the tumor. but the Lord has a plan--and everything will work the way it needs to.
plus, you're a smokin hottie. so, so what if you have a pimple. i'd kill for a mug like yours.
Oh Lauren! You are so lucky to have Tedward.
Everyone has their downtimes, when nothing seems to be going right and you're just sad. But eventually everything gets better.
I hope everything will be okay with your boob lump. I can't imagine what that must be like. You're such a strong person.
Also, every time I'm in Hobby Lobby, something makes me think of you. Just in case you wanted to know! <3
You're in my prayers. I went up in my room and prayed and cried my eyes out for you. ( And got mascara all over my face ) at least you have the most loving, sweetest, kindest, handsomest husband EVAHHH!!
I hope you feel better. *Big hugs*
Oh and I think you are absolutely amazing, and everyday I strive to be more like you!!
I.e:"Oh, I'm wearing pink and black today! Lauren loves pink and black!" Or, "ooh, the hunger games! Lauren said she read it, and loved it. Hm, I guess I'll start reading it!" "Oooh! an Arizona Liscence plate! Aww.. Darn it. It doesn't say ECullen.." And so on and so forth.
You have inspired me in so many things. You have even got me saving up to buy a fancy camera so I can try and learn how to take pictures. And I hate spending money. Except on things I need. Like the Paramore album coming out tomorrow.
its posts like this that im like, Wow. lauren's not perfect? she has real feelings? of course she does!
pshh. i cant believe haven't hung out with you yet. it makes me sad.
we should have hung out like 500 times by now. am i right?
p.s.- the other day i called the temple and put my name on the prayer roll. i needed it. you should do it;) helps when you have other people helpin ya out from the other side/above.
You are wonderful, and you married someone perfect for you! I'm so glad you have each other!
Not happy about how you feel and what you're going through, but it does make me feel good that someone as cute, talented and sweet as you goes through what I go through with my husband... on a monthly basis. :) He's always reassuring that I'm good at things and that I'm perfect for him too. Husbands are GREAT!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZFSn5rs70Rc
MERRY CHRISTMAS!! You need a cheer up, and this should do the trick!!
I forgot to say this earlier...
It doesn't matter if you live in a house, apartment, trailer, shack, cardboard box or a mansion... As long as there is love! Thats all you need to make it a home!
First of all, I'm so sorry about the tumor. I will keep you in my prayers and fasts and any other spiritual connection with the Lord there is.
Second of all, that is the cutest story I've ever heard. It's so sweet, and it's how all husbands should treat their beuatiufl wife. I wish I had a husband to enter into this contest {I haven't really been able to enter any of your contests yet}, but I don't. I have a lovely best friend who I am pretty gosh darn in love with who is dorky, akward, has saved lives {seriously, no joke}, can't sing, can't dance, is starting to get acne, and I love him just the same. He's great! I'll be sure to enter this contest six years from now when we're married. :)
I SO get what you feel about not excelling. I am totally a Jane of all trades, master of none. I'm 31 and still battling acne (planning to make a dermatologist appt. this week as I've been particularly hideous the past 3 mos.) AND I don't have money to buy a home. "Buck up little camper." (Better Off Dead, though you probably knew that).
I'm sorry to hear that you have found another lump. Love and prayers to you!
You are super talented, I don't know what you're talking about! I'm only good at two things, and I call them my two B's. Baking bread and birthing babies. That's it.
I think my husband is hot, but I will not be entering him because it would embarrass him to no end.
You are so amazing Lauren. We all have those days when we feel like crap. But we've all got our special things about us. It makes us different and special. :)
I do know at least one thing you are amazing at, and that's connecting with people and making them laugh. I love reading your blogs and I wish I could be half as cool. :)
I'll be praying for you. Just remember, no one else could handle your trials as well as you can. Best wishes!
-Courtney S.
You are so amazing Lauren. We all have those days when we feel like crap. But we've all got our special things about us. It makes us different and special. :)
I do know at least one thing you are amazing at, and that's connecting with people and making them laugh. I love reading your blogs and I wish I could be half as cool. :)
I'll be praying for you. Just remember, no one else could handle your trials as well as you can. Best wishes!
-Courtney S.
I don't know who will win your contest. We will all vote for our own hubbys ;)
It will be fun to read.
I love that Ted knows just what to do. Where did he learn that?
I must vehemently disagree that you do not excel at anything. I am often left in awe and wonderment at the things you do. Your decorating. Your sense of style. Your cooking. Your blogging skills. Your genuine beauty. Your absolute kindness to strangers that crash your wedding.
I would be so proud of you if you were my daughter. You are amazing and I'm sure that you touch others lives in ways you don't even know. Don't listen to the adversary. He is the one telling you that you are not good enough, that you don't excel at things. It is a lie. The Lord knows just how talented you are. He knows of your developing talents and the ones that you have mastered.
Now I've gone and gotten all motherly on you. How do you bring that out in me?
<3 Lauren <3
seriously, i all the sudden turned 21 & had acne!! so im with you on that one girl.
but isnt it awesome that you can have someone who will be by your side & know exactly what to do?
i love it.
ps. my prayers go out to you girl!
I am so sorry that you have another lumpie. That is really scary. What a blessing to have Ted around to tell you that everything will be okay. Husbands are so great for that. I have been going through some rough physical and mental times too and I don't know what I would do without my hubs. We are so lucky to have best friends that are there for us. I hope that the doctors find out what is going on. And if it makes you feel any better...I am always reading your blog and thinking: why am I not as crafty, pretty, talented, good at taking pictures, good at accessorizing, good at decorating with hootie owls, pretty, crafty, nice, funny, witty, pretty blah blah blah as LAUREN??? I wish I could be as cool as you. Srsly. Its true. I am a total lameo compared with you. So you should feel pretty amazing about yourself because...you ARE! <3
P.S...I just emailed you my submission for the contest. Hubs is going to be sooo embarrassed! :) Bwahahaha!
sorry about the lumps :( prayers your way!
i wish women didn't continually compare themselves to others (i do it all the time). we're all perfect in our own way.
i'm sorry about the lump. i hope that everything works out all right.
you are so blessed to have such a wonderful husband.
and...you're not the only one who feels less-than-perfect. i've had that same conversation with my husband multiple times...and i've only been married 3 and a half months. but yes. i've cried. i've let out wishes that i were more like someone else. i've had insecurities that i'm not skinny enough. or pretty enough. or a good enough cook. or creative enough. yada. yada. yada. it happens. but that's why we're given awesome hubbys. to remind us that we don't have to be perfect at everything. because we're perfect in their eyes. and that's what really matters.
love you lar!
:)
lauren, your photography is A MAZ ING!!! seriously!!! you have no idea how many times i look at your pics and think, 'dang, i wish i could take pics like that!' and you have no idea how many times i look at the cute decorating and goodwill things you buy and cuten up and think 'why can't i ever make stuff that cute!!!' you are an amazing girl with sooo many talents!!
I'm so sorry to hear about your lumps. You are added to my prayers.
Your photography is amazing darling. And you excel at being you. Your family and all of the people who leave happy comments here should show you how many people love and enjoy you and your thoughts you give us.
Sometimes we all go through those down times. We just have to look for the positive and turn to God for His help.
:)
Lauren you're fabulous. For multiple reasons. And I love you.
Someday I will have a husband to enter into the contest. And he'll win.
love you!
Oh Lauren, I am sorry You are going through this! I didn't know you had to deal with this earlier either.
ps
Married of 6 years, still no house (all in due time, that is what I tell myself)
I'm 27 and I still get the acne, My mom still gets it in her 50's so I am pretty sure I am doomed on that part.
ah Lauren–you excel quite wonderfully at honesty. and that's at the bottom of your cool list. but I know how words of comfort from bloggy friends or in the flesh friends don't really fill up the space between the actual moments of despair. but many are rooting for you girl :)
also, your woe list is pretty much my life! {your not alone} just swipe "boob lumps" with "endometriosis" and I most def pick up what your layin down. Especially the acne part. I swear, I have more loathing feelings for that then I do for legit health issues. {sigh}
as for your photography skills...well, I'm a graphic designer, not photo cool, but I deal with photography a lot and you're great. no lies. pursue and you shall prosper. {haha I just made that up for you}
hope you feel blissful soon
you are in my thoughts, lovey. and remember you are special to so many people. lots of folks out there think you are amazing and i think you should too!
So sorry you've been having a blah time. You know, it's funny, because when I read your blog I think that you excel at EVERYTHING that you do! You are so kind, and sweet, and funny and beautiful inside and out. You have an amazing hubby, and you have to be pretty dang special to get someone like him.
Hope you can see how much we all love you from our 100+ comments! :)
A good husband trumps all of life's worries, and you, dear Lauren, have one very good husband.
Lauren, it really hurt me to read that the lump is back and that you´re feeling down. I wish there was something I could do to make you feel better! But it sounds like Ted has everything under control. :)
I´d really like to participate in your contest, but there still is no husband or boyfriend...my "significant others" at the moment are my lovely crazy friends...does that count?? ;)
Hope you´re feeling better! I´m sending you hugs all the way from Spain right now.
Lauren,
Being good at a lot of things is much better than being good at just one thing. And you are very talented at photography and sewing and decorating and a million other things. I often think to myself after reading your blog....man I wish I was as talented as Lauren...
So, please know that I think you are awesome in a million ways and I never even met your face!
Sending prayers about your lump your way. God will see you through this...and everything else.
x, ash
I'm so sorry you have been down lately. I've been down lately too & I've realized the best blessing in life is to have a sweet husband who loves you unconditionally.
I'm so sorry. At least you have the Tedward. i don't know what I would do without my husband when I too get down in the dumps
Lauren,
I'm sorry to hear about your lumpy booby. While I have no clue what that is like, I can tell you that I'm 26 and my hubby is 29 and we BOTH STILL HAVE ACNE! His is worse than mine, but seriously, you are not the only adult with acne, I promise you. I'm sending my entry right now!!!
Keeping you in my prayers!!
Oh Lauren. I will pray for you that the lumps situation is resolved quickly, relatively painlessly, and inexpensively! It sounds like one prayer has been answered in that regard--so glad Ted has been so supportive!
I love your contest idea, and can't wait to see who wins. I love my hot husband, but will not be entering him. He would kill me :-)
Oh, yes...THIS contest.
Duh.
Oh, yes...THIS contest.
Duh.
The Tedward is awesome, sometimes we just need to let it out and have someone accept us and love us unconditionally! Way to go Tedward! I love the new idea! It rocks!
My hubby would spank the others down and shame them as he is so great, so I will not enter him. I'll let another dude think he is the winner this time. ;)
But I did want to say I'm sorry for the added boobage-of-the-unwanted-variety. This is an example of why we have to be specific in our prayers. Perhaps you were praying to have bigger bubbies and things just got mucked up a bit in the details?
(OK - I hope that made you laugh - as that was the intention. I'm so sorry for this development, and please know that waaaaaay on down here in Florida, we'd be happy to pray for your health and safety and peace of mind through this!!)
Lauren, I am so sorry to hear about all the rough times you are going through. But, I am also glad that you are awesome enough to see the light in the dark and that you have Ted. I will be praying for. I know this isn't much, but always know that you bring a smile to my face when I read your blogs. And PS I'm 23 and still have disgusting teenage pimples on my face...so I totally understand.
Lauren, I'm sorry about your lump! That's not fun. I just entered your contest. Brady would kill me if he found out! :)
Lauren can I PLEASE just say how freakin awesome you are! Me and My BFF Krista talk about you daily (in a good way) and brag about you to our friends. Unfortunately they dont know you are our blog best friend and not our real life best friend, but as you would say "ain't no thang!" I enjoy your blog so much, and when I have bad days, your blog is the only thing to put a smile back on my face. Please don't tell my husband that though, I am entering him into the contest his name is Jon and he is pretty amazing :)
the tedward is awesome. seriously.
i am sorry about your lumpy boobs. but i know that you will be just fine and even though i am not very religious i will think happy thoughts about you and that will be my version of praying.
and i think you're a great photographer and don't let anyone tell you differently.
xoxoxo
Lauren you make me smile with your blog! But I have many a time that I feel the same way and after awhile it gets better and having a great understanding husband is the key! I'm sorry to hear about your lump I'm scared to find one on myself knowing there is boobie cancer in my fam. I'm praying for you! And girl you are great no outstanding at many things including Photography! My brother is a photographer and if your stuff can make him jealous then I know you are doing great! Oh and by the way I'm 29 and still have pimples! Blah! Trying to get rid of them is a pain and a half! *sigh* I feel your pain! Can't wait to enter my hottie hubby in your little contest! Thanks for making me smile!
Lauren... first off, I think you are amazing. I know what you mean though about knowing you are good at a lot of things but not "the best"... that bugs me a lot. But, you ARE amazing at everything! That's how I see it, anyway! DOn't be so harsh on yourself. I've been in a rut myself lately- you are so lucky to have a supportive husband. Some girls don't.
Not everyone can afford houses- even if they buy them. I know many people who can't make payments but act like they can. We're still renting, and it's all good. Anyway, my ward is on a "media blackout" so I've been banning myself from blogs all week.. um HI it's tuesday and here I be. I'm so glad I sneaked on- because reading this makes me want to be there for you! I love you to death- don't be down, please? I hate those tumors! But this too shall pass... (too bad I'm not talking about a kidney stone! Then I'd say, no pun intended HEH HEH!)
♥
I'm sorry about all your woes, but if it makes you feel better, I look up tp you! :)
I wish I could find crazy things and decorate and create fabulous decor, take awesome pics, write a funny blog, have a cool sense of style...etc! Your the best Lauren!
Lauren.
I am so sorry. It is okay to be sad sometimes. I am thinking about you.
what a fun idea for a contest... love it! but how on earth will you judge that?
you are so creative, and your photos are amazing... i think the fact that you aren't satisfied with them is a credit to your artistic mind...it will continue to drive you until you reach perfection..
speaking of perfection, you and ted together=peeeerfect!
I am so sorry to hear about the lump... i have recently discovered a large one myself... i've been reading a lot and think mine is probably a cist... but man it really stinks! my heart goes out to you, but i know your in good hands with the Tedward!
sending you lots of love and prayers!
I hear you on the boob lump, I'm going in for my doctor to "feel" one next week. I have had other body problems (heart surgery) in the past and don't want anymore:( Hang in there.
He he! I just read Connie's comment. Ditto to her!
We all love you and we're totally here for you in your woe is me time! I can't even imagine what you must be feeling.. having a boob lump! That is so scary. Thank goodness for Ted.
Prayers and love to you!
so i asked my husband if he could be entered...he said "um, no." lol. sad day. but i'll support no less.
I'm a little late in commenting, but we just moved and I've been disconnected. So we girls are funny, eh? always comparing ourselves with others and thinking we're not good enough. I do it more often than I should. And to tell you the truth, I sometimes think that when I read YOUR blog. I wish I was as stylish as you, as thrifty, as creative, as good with spray paint, and had great decorating sense like you. Just remember (I'm saying this to my self too) that when you look at others and wish you had their strengths, others are looking at you and thinking the same thing. Good luck with everything!
I know what it feels like to be scared about medical bills and your own health it really can be such a bummer! Try getting help with the state insurance you can apply and have them pay for your bills when it comes time. I'm so sorry things have been hard but atleast you have a wonderful husband that loves you no matter what! & whoah! what the crap? you take wonderful photos! I think they are very creative! Very artsy. & you know taking pictures and doing any sort of art only gets better with time and practice. So don't feel like its a competion cause it aint. No two people can do the same work. Everyone has their own approach & I think yours is great, keep up the good work.
Lauren, first of all, you are awesomespice to the max!!
Your photography looks great, so don't let people put you down on that (there are always those nasty people who have something nasty to say because it's what they do to feel better about themselves, srlsy - not all criticism is "constructive" if you know what I mean).
Second, I'm so sorry to hear about the tumor, having medical problems so young is not cool (my husband has had them too since a young age, so I can sympathize). But I'm sure that everything will work out okay, just try to stay positive about it (I know it's hard).
And about the acne? Yep, I've got it too straight from teenage years to adulthood (not terrible, just little flares). The dermatologist is the way to go (thank goodness for Differin, it is a miracle I tell ya!). And mineral makeup (it is the bomb LOL)!
And yes, we girls out here do sometimes wish we were as cool as you!! :)
I am a little behind reading your blog because my computer kept freezing up when I would try to log on. I had to comment though. Last Fall was the first time I read your blog- it was actually the LaurensBite blog. I had felt so down and sad for a while and I didn't know why. I read your blog and it was the first time I actually laughed in a very long time and I had tears rolling down my face. I know it is easy to discount the talents we have if we don't think that they are as important as others. I think we all do that, but Lauren you pulled me out of a depression that I didn't fully understand that I was in. And to me that counts for something. I am so sorry to hear about your lump. Believe me when I say that you will be in my thoughts and prayers.
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