scenes from the weekend.

scenes from the freakin' weekend...

♥ ted got a haircut from mama face.

♥ we went on a date.

♥ we spent saturday together.

♥ we went to a birthday dinner for our nephew. happy birthday, gabe!

♥ i had a wonderful photo shoot, and they gifted us a costa vida gift card. thank you, ari!

♥ ted made me lots of yummy tea. things are blooming here, so i am having allergies.

hope you had a great weekend!

it's my birthday week...

well...it's my favorite week of the year. it's my birthday week!

and since i am turning 23 and am very sad about this particular number, i thought i would do something happy.

i am giving away a brand new white Diana Mini camera with 4 packs of film. yes...i just said that.

i picked this one out for you guys, because i love my Diana camera, and i loved that it was all white. HOW CUTE!

i am actually jealous that you guys are getting the white one, when i have a mint green one.

i must love you guys a lot...

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

isn't it the cutest camera ever?! i love. and i hope whoever wins will love it too!

to enter you MUST be a follow of the blog...because i don't want to give this bad boy to a lurker.

and then you must comment telling me who your favorite book boyfriend is :) mine is Peeta, followed closely behind with Ky!

you may add extra entries if you blog or tweet about the giveaway.

you have until February 7th to enter! good luck!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEE!

daily outfit: sunday best.

turtleneck: little tree vintage etsy

dress: vintage - thrifted

shoes: burlington coat factory

i seriously love this dress so much. but mom...will you help me take it in up the sides a bit?

kthanxbai.

wreck this journal: take 4

this morning i decided to spread a quilt on the floor, snack on blackberries and listen to some tunes as i devoured another assignment from my "wreck this journal" book. this one wasn't a very random/crazy adventure...just a nice chill exercise.

if you missed my other adventures...here they are.

cool little fact: when i got out my journal and randomly flipped to this page, an instant photo of ted fell out from this very page. i don't know why the photo was there, but it definitely was my inspiration for the word. also...i know that i wasn't supposed to write any other words, but i thought it important to classify what i was loving this very day.

what do you love today?

someone in mesa loves me.

i have decided i either like to wear dresses, or tshirts & jeans. mostly just tshirts, though.

this week was a doozy, and i apologize for my lack of outfit posts. i was in a fight with the blog world.

anyway...i am over it. here is what i basically wore ALL week, but different tees each day :)

also...today i wore a pony tail. i NEVER wear regular pony tails...but it was nice for a change!

you know how it goes with pony tails...you gotta "tighten and fluff"...it's an unwritten rule...

tshirt: i heart mesa shop

jeans: joe's brand - nordstrom rack

cardigan: old navy

frames: urban outfitters

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holy cute!

i love when creative and crafty readers make me things that remind them of me.

it's so fun to see what they come up with!

a few days ago i found this gloriousness on my doorstep, and fell in love...

how cute, huh?! can't wait to find a spot to put it when we move :)

the best part is, Kacey, the cute girl who made it for me, is giving away a Valentine's themed subway art piece over on her blog. thanks, kacey for the cuteness! it's so awesomespice.

busy bee giveaway: gracie bella butterfly shop

i am really excited about today's giveaway from Gracie Bella Butterfly Shop!

the cute shop offers earrings, headbands and notecards...and they are all so whimsical!

she is so generous, she is offering one of you a headband, earrings AND a set of notecards!

dude. i know, right?

here are some of my favorites...and by favorites, i mean...give them to me right now:

i need this headband...or any of them.

cutest earrings.

i love the color combo going on in these cards! so cute!

all you have to do is visit her shop, and tell me what your favorite item is :)

for an extra entry, tell me something you are doing this weekend...because i am bored, and want to know.

giveaway will close next friday. kthanxbai.

GIVEAWAY CLOSED

and the winner is...

please email me your info!

recent instax...

the first photo. i need to frame it. ASAP.

i love changing leaves.

oh...and ted too.

always ted.

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getting over it.

when i hear "get over it" i think of what a luxury it would be to have my issues be remedied that easily. to add a little neosporin to my knee when i fall down and scrape it. to take some advil when i have a headache. or to get some frozen yogurt after a bad day. oh how simple it would be...



i have always believed that Heavenly Father would never let us be tempted above what we are able to bear. growing up i never felt tempted to drink alcohol, to have sexual relations, to swear. i never felt the need. but i knew others that truly struggled with these temptations. i often wondered why others were tempted so badly, when i never really had these struggles. over the years i have realized that my greatest temptation from Satan is believing that i am not of worth. that i am not worthy of love. that i am ugly. that i am hideous. i know we aren't tempted above what we can handle, but i must confess...sometimes i let Satan win. sometimes i am so depressed with how i feel about myself, that i stay in bed all day. sometimes i stay home from church because i feel frustrated in the person i am. i am robbing myself of happiness because i let Satan let me believe that i am nothing. and somewhere, Satan is happy because i am sad.



i feel like my heart and my brain are at a constant battle. they both put up a hard fight, and they always come to a truce, until the next battle inevitably ensues. the truce being, let lauren live in misery until one day she will figure it out, and let one side win. my heart aches for the day when it can let the kindness and love that others give me, to sink in. my brain fights the heart, and tries to convince the heart that it doesn't deserve the love. that the love isn't true. that the kindness is a lie. that lauren doesn't deserve the love given to her. the brain is cunning. the brain is smart. but the heart tells lauren, that somehow...the brain is wrong.



but how can the brain be wrong when i am so grateful for the things the brain has enabled me to do? i am grateful that the brain holds the key to my imagination and creativity. and that the brain holds memories and moments in my life that bring me happiness. my brain functions well, and helps me navigate through this world. maybe the brain is just confused...



what if the only thing that needs to be done, is for the brain and heart to stop fighting. if they listened to each other, maybe things would get better. maybe they would be able to "get over" what it is that they both are having issues with. maybe if the heart whispered to the brain that lauren is worth it, and that she is worthy of love, maybe the brain would agree. maybe the brain would realize that it isn't the cunning, and smart and wrong one. maybe it would realize someone else is. maybe it would realize these ideas have been planted by someone else.



maybe the brain would realize Satan is the the cunning and smart one.
maybe the brain would realize the he is the one that is wrong.

pretty, ordinary things.

sometimes it's nice to take a moment and notice the beauty in ordinary things...

♥

it's like inception...

no...this post is not to talk about how Leo got snubbed by the Oscar's again. i don't wanna talk about it.

this is a video that ted shot, while i was sleeping the other night. seriously.

i have watched it over and over again and i CANNOT stop laughing. ted is pretty proud of it.

some things to note:

1. the boy "daniel" i am referring to is a character from a book i have fallen in love with. more on that later.

2. "poopsmith" is a character from one of our fav internet cartoons on Homestarrunner.com (best site ever)

3. apparently my subconsious is pretty mad at ted for not knowing "the poopsmith" off the bat.

4. yes i was asleep, and had no idea this was being shot.

5. genius.

scenes from the weekend.

not much went down this weekend...which was perfectly fine with me.

lots and lots of reading and lots of reflecting.

i like quiet time :)